.Friday, December 14, 2007 ' 2:22 AM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
hahaz...recently i wasn't in a good mood...i shall say sorri to those who i actually give attitude to...i'm really sorry...but what can i say...it will nv be the same anymore...sorry for pl who read...and actually hurt u or rather say something not nice to u...but i just wanna pour all my feeling out...it is a torture to bottle up the feeling of unhappiness... or whatever it is...
okie okie recently...i think a lot lot more... i'm just wondering is my attitude change toward u or is ur attitude change towards me...i noe it is a sensitive word to use...but i hope is my attitude change...n i shall be sorry for that... it is becuz i will feel clueless to what the conversation u all are talking... that why i feel bored... this make me didnt want to talk... in another words of saying i'm actually the odd one out... but i shldn't blame on anyone...as i just anti-social...
1 thing that make me sad today...was actually in bus...clar asked me...where u all going... i'm clueless...so i say i dunno...den i say mayb u all going home...when i noe that u all going down...i also dunno why my feeling was really damn bad...in addition i was listening to those emo song... i actually cried for no reason... i also dunno why...
after reading this... u may be thinking that i actually trying to control ur life... but actually i think i am thinking too much... i noe this may create a quarrel but i hope not... so during this two weeks of holiday... i will think over of what had i done... i may not contact u guys for this period of times...so please forgive mi... frankly speaking... this is the first time... i may feel left out... or maybe i would say i had isolate myself... so i'm sorry for all the cause to u guys...thanks for being there for me...
but what can i say..i hate the way i am now... and i shall say i think it will nv be the same as last time we used to be... SORRY...
sorry if i had say something not nice or hurtful...sorry...pls forgive...
